Here it is - my obligatory New Years blog. So much is swirling around in my head right now. I feel like all of last year was a complete waste. Like, had 2008 skipped ahead and jumped straight to now, 2010, it wouldn't have made a bit of difference in my life. It's all been static. My biggest struggle these days is not a new one. I just need some motherfucking direction in my life. Something. Anything to look forward to. Some sort of goal or achievement to make. Get rid of all the filler so that I can concentrate on the important stuff. Strip away the nonsense so that I have no choice but to focus on what's in front of me. For a while school was doing the trick, but I think the thrill of my 4.0 GPA has worn off. I need something new to excite me. Some kind of challenge. For now... and here's where the cliche part comes in... it's getting back into shape. Losing 15-20 pounds. Not looking and feeling like a mountain of blobby, jiggly, lumpy shit anymore. Taking control of my health. Getting over this stupid back injury. Being one with myself again. Making myself important. Thinking of my own needs. Putting myself first for once. This is what I need more than anything.
Oh, and getting laid wouldn't hurt, either...
:oP
